This means a lot to me because 1 yr ago I didn’t know what my future would look like without alcohol.
When I gave it up completely, my mind & body went into panic. How would I survive without wine for the rest of my life?
I learned that I was so dependent on alcohol. I relied on it to cope with stress. I didn’t know how to cope with stress in healthy ways like exercising, prayer, yoga, running, meditating, reading a book, taking baths or talking to someone I could trust about my anxious thoughts, fears or concerns.
I didn’t know how to have fun at social events without a glass of wine in my hand. I thought I was more fun if I drank.
I worried about people not liking me anymore if I didn’t drink. I looked up at billboards & commercials they bombarded me with ads how alcohol was so fun . But they don’t talk about how alcohol ruins families and causes many deaths in the U.S.
People ask me “Reyna, I didn’t know you had a problem with alcohol, why did you stop drinking?” The truth is I stopped drinking bc alcohol ruined my life in so many ways. I was sick & tired of it controlling my life.
People around me drank to much and acted out in ways that were not safe and kind.
I saw loved ones in pain due to their loved ones drinking excessively.
I grew up hurt bc of it & started repeating the behavior & hurt people too bc I too abused alcohol.
I hurt my mind & body for putting alcohol in my system for so many years. Have you ever looked at the brain of someone that doesn’t drink and someone that does? It’s crazy! God has blessed me with this body to fulfill His plan here on Earth. I must treated it right & nourish it well. My body thanks me for letting go of those toxins. It also thanked me for getting my life healthy in so many ways. I now have boundaries for myself, what I will allow and not allow in my life.
Alcohol is no longer allowed to control me. It has no place in my mind, body or soul.
This is 1 of my biggest accomplishments. It’s a one day at a time process.
I celebrate myself today! It was not easy but so worth it!
Stop blaming others for why you are the way you are. Yes they may have been the cause of your pain but they are not the cause why your stuck in it , depressed, unfulfilled, angry, bitter, or anxious. You are responsible for your emotions and your reactions.
Stop blaming others for your depression, your anxiety, your anger, or your tension. You have a choice to release the burdens daily. You have a choice to stop letting them treat you like a doormat.
Take responsibility, own your healing.
It’s your life not theirs.
It’s your freedom not theirs.
It’s your healing that births purpose.
Take heart own your story.
Your on your way to freedom. Keep digging out the weeds that no longer serve you.
Your abundant life is sprouting! See God is doing a new thing!!
It’s your healing that will set you free.
It’s your healing that God will use to set others free.
Surrender your pain to the only one that truly heals- Jesus!
Wait for the LORD; be strong and take heart and wait for the LORD. Psalm 27:14 NIV
For so many years I didn’t love myself. Why, because I didn’t feel worthy of being loved.
I had made many mistakes in my past which led to low self-worth. I often felt shame, guilt, depressed and a lot of self hate.
Being an adopted child (being put up for adoption) was the root of my pain. It created pain in my heart. Growing up I was exposed to alcohol and anger. This added to the feeling of unworthiness. I always felt like something was wrong with me.
I got really good at not feeling the hurt I felt inside. So I surpressed it all. The anger manefisted and turned into self-hate. Hating and resenting my story.
In 2012 I finally realized I was worthy. I was in need of a Savior- Jesus!
I am Daughter of the King! I am a gem, brave, creative, and I have a lot to offer to this world.
Living insecure with low self-worth defeats the purpose of why God created me. He created me to live an abundant life. He created me to shine and not hide. He created me on purpose for a purpose! To forgive and to receive forgiveness. He created me to love and be loved. To love myself even in my brokenness.
I know now in Him I am not missing, lacking or broken. I am complete in Him.
And today I love myself more than yesterday. It’s a daily process.
If no one has told you today. You are enough, forgiven and you are so Loved my darling! Yes we’ve made mistakes, and possibly hurt some people along the way but God has forgiven us and Nothing can separate us from the love of God. None of our sin is greater than His love.
“And I am convinced that nothing can ever separate us from God’s love. Neither death nor life, neither angels nor demons,neither our fears for today nor our worries about tomorrow—not even the powers of hell can separate us from God’s love. No power in the sky above or in the earth below—indeed, nothing in all creation will ever be able to separate us from the love of God that is revealed in Christ Jesus our Lord.” Romans 8:38-39