21 months Sober!!

This is My sober app countdown I can’t believe I’m 1 yr and 21 months sober. In 2 months I celebrate 2yrs alcohol-free. For a long time I was sober curious. I just felt stuck, unhappy, restless, and not happy on how I dealt with my stress. I didn’t deal with it in a healthy way I drank socially and on the weekends. I couldn’t wait for the weekend bc It was my excuse to drink. God spoke to me for about 7 years to lay the alcohol down and finally on September 10, 2019 I obeyed. My life has been so much more fruitful. The discipline it takes..the accountability, and the support it takes to stay alcohol free in such a alcohol driven world. It’s hard but not impossible! With God all things are possible. It’s a one day at a time process. I will keep moving forward in obedience because God is faithful!

I use the Sober Time app.

You’re not alone in this pain.

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I have often felt alone in my pain. Like no one else can relate to all the feelings I have. Feeling like I’m the only one in this emotional chaos. A tumbleweed of emotions. The wind blowing me left, right and all around! Everyday trying to center myself, and capture every thought captive. I have questioned my Heavenly Father, “Why me?” Why do I have tall these emotions, this kind of story, a story of pain, division, different types of abuse, addictions, hardship, sorrow, a generation of brokenness?

The Lord replied, “Why not you Reyna”? I want to use your pain to touch the lives of many. Your pain, your stories, your life is relatable to many. You just don’t realize it because they are suffering in silence. And the more you keep your pain to yourself the longer you all will suffer in silence.

I walked on this earth to set people free. I gave you that story because I knew I could trust you with that pain. I knew I could trust you to share it to set other people free.

I want to break every chain, addictions, strongholds, and demonic spirits that cause chaos in the lives of my children.

I want people to see my power working through you. I want people to experience my healing power through your redemption story.

My love is sufficient. My love heals all wounds. My love turns your ashes in to something beautiful.

I am mighty to save.

I am your true companion.

I am your healer.

I am your healing balm.

I gave you all those emotions so you can write and bring healing to many.

Will you write? Will you sing? Will you paint? Will you draw? Will you create? Will you speak?

Will you stop running from my purpose for your life.

Will you be willing to share the redemption story I am writing through you?

Will you allow me to create something beautiful with your ashes? – God

Sit, listen, stop striving will you just adore me.

With Christmas around the corner, I found myself baking cookies, binge watching holiday movies, and the latest Netflix shows, planning out gifts, scrolling on Amazon for gifts. Some days in the shopping aisle trying to fill the advent calendar, and stuffing the stockings. When then my physical and mental health began spiriling down for the millionth time–my body aching, head hurting, digestive issues calling out to me again. A constant pattern I fall into. Why? What now? What are you trying to tell me body?

Ofcourse, like many of us I thought it had to be Covid. Geez…everything is Covid these days.

Well I headed to the computer at midnight to make an appointment at CVS. Thank God there was something available. The next day I went to take the test, and 2 days later it came out negative.

So what now?

Then, I heard the spirit of the Lord tell me,

“Reyna stop striving!” You don’t have to proof to me your worthy of being loved, or of receiving my blessings. The burn out, the exhaustion, the worry is tied to the root of you not feeling worthy of my love. Why do you feel like you always have to be performing, striving, achieving, doing? Instead of sitting down and enjoying the calmness and peace that I offer, you are anxiously pacing around your home trying to fulfill the next items on your to-do list. I am the prince of peace my daughter.

The christmas lights, cookies, presents, hot cocoa, stockings, decorations it’s all nice but that’s not as important then sitting with me. Instead, will you just sit with me? Will you put me first, adore me, abide in me? Will you surrender what you think your life should look like in this season? Will you trust in me alone? Can you stop the Instagram scrolling, the comparison, the feeling of lack, and instead of being like Martha in the bible, be more like Mary.

According to the Gospel of Luke: As Jesus and his disciples were on their way, he came to a village where a woman named Martha opened her home to him. She had a sister called Mary, who sat at the Lord’s feet listening to what he said.

As Jesus and his disciples were on their way, he came to a village where a woman named Martha opened her home to him. 39 She had a sister called Mary, who sat at the Lord’s feet listening to what he said. 40 But Martha was distracted by all the preparations that had to be made. She came to him and asked, “Lord, don’t you care that my sister has left me to do the work by myself? Tell her to help me!” 41 “Martha, Martha,” the Lord answered, “you are worried and upset about many things, 42 but few things are needed—or indeed only one.[a] Mary has chosen what is better, and it will not be taken away from her.” Luke 10: 38-42

Listen to what I have to tell you instead of trying to figure it all out.

Will you stop all the doing, and be present?

Will you reflect on my goodness, and the blessings right in front of you instead of focusing on what you don’t have.

Can you embrace the season your in, and fulfill the mission that is right in front of you.

Be faithful with the little?

Will you nurture your kids, lead them well? Be faithful with building a firm foundation in your home before you go out and build other things that don’t have eternal value.

Wow! That one hit me hard ya’ll. It made me realize that daily I have to check my priorities, realign myself with His will. I often get distracted and loose my focus. Sometimes I focus so much on the future that I forget to enjoy whats in front of me, and I miss out on His blessings.

Can you relate?

The great news is that if I make time for the word of God (The Bible) and prayer, I am reminded that He is my shepherd. He leads me back to His everlasting arms. His grace is sufficient. He knows me so well, that He knows where to find me (dreaming of the future most days).

Here are some realignment questions:

Where is your mind these days?

Where is your time being spent?

What takes prominent space on your schedule?

Are you enjoying the main reason for the season…Jesus?

Are you adoring Him?

Are you sitting in awe of His goodness?

Praising Him for all I have done for you this year?

Calling out your daily blessings?

Are you sharing the love of Jesus to your children or to those around you?

Are you displaying to your kids how important the bible is?

Are you showing them that you make time to read the word of God?

Are you reading the word of God to your children?

Showing those around you what’s most important in this life.

Are you serving your community?

Are you resting on your sabaath?

Are you using the gifts I gave you to bless others in your life?

When people look at your life and see Jesus?

If not, grace upon grace, this isn’t to shame you but to call out to you that it’s time to make a shift! Choose whats better. It’s time to adore Him, and focus on the real reason for the season. Focus on the one that sustains, provides, comforts, heals and brings you everlasting peace. Allow Him to help you, to carry you and redirect you.

I sat there in wonder of His goodness, oh how he loves me. He calls me by name. He feels the same way about you. I hope you know that, if not now you know.

Let’s stop our anxious ways and Let us adore Him.

XO, Reyna Morris

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Align your priorties.

For where your treasure is, there will your heart be also.  Matthew 6:21

Determining your priorities can be a tricky thing. It can deplete you and leave you feeling burned out. In today’s IG stories I share with you a few thoughts on how to align your priorities with God. If you cannot find today’s IG story it’s under the tab wisdom on @reynamorrisco. Let me know your thoughts, what do you have a challenge with when it comes to prioritizing?

Xo, Reyna Morris